So with everything going on, I think i might have made my dog terminally depressed. And part of me feels really bad. Like why am i such a terrible person, but then i give her a piece of meat, she smiles, and im fine.
I think my dog feels like her replacement is coming or something. Lately she wants like nothing to do with me sometimes. And it might be because im pregnant and havent been able to take long walks like we used to or maybe because she feels like she will soon be replaced, im not sure. But my puppy is sad and i am sad, until i get another mood swing.
It all started when i noticed she didnt want to lay on my lap or cuddle with me like she used to. At first i thought it was because she was getting bigger and she thought she was too big, but now its like this hatred of me. Then she used to cry when i went to the bathroom, like sit at the door and scratch and scratch until i came out, but now she must be thinking im having an affair with the toilet, like she looks at me heading to the bathroom and gives me this look like "Why? What did i do wrong?". It breaks my heart sometimes.
There are so many things after that but this last one really just gets me right there. Even as she got bigger, she would sleep in the bed with me, even if i put hers next to my bed shed whine til she was on her designated pillow. Now when its time for the house to shut down, she sombers into my MOMS room. She doesnt even really like my mom all that much, but ill get up to get water and there she is at the end of her bed, starring at me like "Why? What did i do wrong?".
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